Well, I can honestly say that I have little to no complaints about my life right now. It's a weird feeling, seeing as how for the past two years or so I've had a cloud of depression hovering over me. I didn't even realize it was there until it wasn't anymore and I felt the change inside of me. Honestly, I can say that this feeling was tied to living in New York and working at jobs that weren't satisfying, but in all reality I was depressed because my soul was sick. Not going to church and allowing my Spirit/Soul to be fed affected me more than I like to admit. My thoughts were negative, my actions weren't those of a Christian, and my life grieved the Holy Spirit living inside me. Not until I started going to a church where I could be fed and nourished did I start to feel the cloud lifting. Then I got a new job, which is rewarding every day, and I no longer hate to get up in the morning. I sometimes wonder if all this is too good to be true - like maybe one day something awful will have to happen because who gets to live this good all the time? But maybe this is how I'm supposed to feel every day. Maybe God has been waiting to bless me like He has. Maybe He was waiting on me to make my way back to Him.
All I know is I'm finding the joy I lost way back when, and I'm finding myself smiling for no reason pretty much every day. I'm so thankful for the blessings in my life, and I hope it continues forever!!
